Dear Diary,

It’s been some time, haven’t it?

Some times I look at myself, I’ll wonder to myself if I’m unhappy?

I’ve always been circling my happiness around others that I have no idea how to make myself happy.

My happiness is based on others and I can't really seem to remember what is it like being truly happy.

Making others happy seems to be a priority over myself. How do I step out from this vicious cycle?

I second guess myself, I feel inferior and the situation(s) aren’t helping in any ways possible.

So dear me, can I love myself a little more?

I hate feeling this way, I've thrown all these negative thoughts away,

I told myself that things will somehow turn for the better but somehow the negativity kicks back in.

Who would appreciate someone who’s weak, vulnerable and defenseless?

I’m sick of saying “It’s okay” or “I’m okay”.

Will anyone understand?

Till then, x