Dear diary,

I have finally found the willingness to spend time to type out a post of words since like forever. Maybe I did blog about some really stupid stuff in the past and I can't stop feeling so embarrassed that I speak or think in that manner, but I guess since this is a new phase in my life, I would like to pen some thoughts down.

There have been many changes that happened concurrently which may have left me a little lost in this period of time, but I do appreciate the people that was there for me. Probably trusting someone isn't as hard as I think of it to be and maybe, to be able to gain someone's trust is to put your trust into them.

It's my first day here in Exeter being independently alone without my mom, but thank god for the friends that I've met in Singapore. It's really a blessing to be able to meet them. Felt less home sick in a way. Anyway, I did some grocery shopping just now and I'm so insanely hungry that I can eat a cow right now.

The weather here have been chilly and I did attempted to wear a crop top, shorts and flip flops. Guess I missed Singapore way too much. Missing warm, sunny Singapore. My char kway teow, wanton mee, char siew and roasted pork rice, fried prawn mee and the list of food that I want is never ending!

So anyway, there's been a lot in my head recently, there's been quite a bit of what ifs, been thinking about life a little more than usual and a whole lot of stuff. Felt a little overwhelmed by all my thoughts actually. It’s like I never felt like this in my life before and probably, I couldn’t do it as how I thought I could.

By the way, a side note, my flat mates are really awesome people! Had some cocktails with them at Imperial tonight and some card games when we got back. Feeling really glad to have them as my flat mates :’)

Love,

Becs (A name I always wanted to call myself when I was a kid)