Dear Diary,
It's 23rd December today and it's 3.19pm right now.
I was studying a couple of minutes ago with Kiss the Rain by Yiruma on repeat at the background.
And it felt like I should be penning something down on my blog right now.
It's approximately a week more to 2015 and 2014 has been a roller coaster ride for me.
It's the year I made one of the toughest decision and time has passed so quickly over this year.
I
was abroad in the UK for almost 8 months and back in Singapore for 4 months.
I
traveled to places around the UK, Paris, Dublin, Korea and Barcelona.
I spent Summer interning at Klarra and met my friends from different stages in life.
I spent so much time alone at the beginning of the year and no it's not in any sense bad or lonely,
I enjoyed the simple comfort of lazying around and whipping up something good in the kitchen.
And of course, for the last quarter of the year, I spent quite a far bit of time with someone special.
2014 is also the year that I
hit 21.
People always say that 21 is an important age, but frankly, I don't see what's the big deal about it.
It's funny how I've always wanted to throw a 21st party but a month before it, I decided not to.
I cancelled the hotel booking and told my mom that I'll like to do a simple dinner with her instead.
And no, there's no regrets for that.
Probably it comes with age, I feel like I have a new set of views towards things and life right now,
I don't take things as hard as how I would in the past, I became a little more positive,
And I came to the realisation that it's not that hard trying to love, protect and stand up for myself.
I guess I've changed. I guess my lifestyle changed a little. I guess my thoughts too.
Or did they not?
Someone once told me that the 5 people that you often hang out with probably defines who you are.
That is in terms of your attitude, the way you carry yourself and how you carry out your lifestyle.
And maybe it's true.
As the year is coming to an end, it feels like it's only right to do some reflection now.
I felt like I haven't been the best daughter yet and there were some regrets here and there,
But thankfully, I'm glad that I've grown in certain ways that I've never expected myself to.
And for 2015's resolution, I hope, I really do hope to be a better person.
I hope to throw all the negativity, inferiority and unhappiness aside as much as possible.
I hope to grow to be a more bearing, positive and independent person.
And with that being said, being independent doesn't mean that I don't need anyone.
I'm a few days away from my flight back to the UK,
And this time round, I'll be counting down in a foreign ground.
But I guess home is where the heart lies.
"Home has never & will never be a place
As the people / person who you hold the deepest affection for,
Will always be able to make you feel like home."
I'm dreading to pack my luggage and I'm starting to feel a little home sick.
But on the bright side, I'm going to see my favourite one in less than a week.
Till the next time (Probably next year!)
Shihui